It’s time I got brave enough to officially come out in the form of a blog post, internet. My name is Ellen, and I’m a demiromantic asexual. What exactly does that mean? Well, I’ll happily try to explain it! It’s complicated, but I’ll try. Ahem.
I’m sure everyone is aware of that sexual orientation thing. You are defined as straight if you are sexually attracted to the opposite gender, you are defined as gay if you’re sexually attracted to the same gender, and you are defined as bi if you’re sexually attracted to any gender. But what if you aren’t sexually attracted to anyone? No. There’s nothing wrong with you. That, my friends, is defined as being asexual. And it is indeed a valid sexual orientation representing about 1% of the human population. For my whole life I thought I was broken and that something was wrong with me. While talking with a very good friend I finally discovered what asexuality was early this year, at last explaining a whole lot of things about my life so far, and most importantly, showing me I’m not alone in the way I feel about love.
“Thought unseen, that gift – it lies within us all. It is a constant turmoil of light and darkness, strength and frailty, beauty and unsightliness.
That gift is our spirit. It gives us the strength we need to persevere in hardships. But at times, it is nothing but a curse, straying beyond our control… causing us pain and sorrow.
Even so, it is something far too precious to lose. It is what allows me to hold hope for the future. In a world consumed by chaos, in a world where spirits are fading. I ask myself: have I the strength to embrace my gift?” – Lightning Farron, my shero.
To say that the Final Fantasy XIII trilogy has a special place in my heart would be an understatement. Not gonna lie, it was a struggle to write this article for the big Final Fantasy Crystal Compendium community project. I could go into the technical details of all three games, but I don’t want to. There are a ton of reviews from experts if you want to read that. I could get cranky and babble on about how much everyone seems to hate on these 3 games with passion, for various reasons, but I’m not. Everyone has their opinions, and that’s fine. Love them or hate them, Lightning, Sazh, Snow, Hope, Vanille, Fang, Serah, and Noel all mean the world to me. They were the family and friends I desperately needed during a difficult time when my own selfish misery had left me abandoned and lost in my own darkness.