Back in the day (Earth year 2017 to be exact), the talented folks over at Later Levels asked the wonderful blogging community questions every month is a challenge aptly called Question of the Month. In October 2017, the big question was this:
My blogger tag To Do list is outta control, man. For the record, I love everyone who thinks to tag me in these chain letters… I mean, Blogger Tags/Awards. It’s just my response time ranges from almost forever to never. I need to be in the right mood to write about stuff, I guess? I’m also old now and I forget what I was tagged in if I don’t bookmark it right away… and what is proper sentence structure? I’m seriously a mess over here.
Anyway, I’m going to try to work on that! Don’t beat yourself up over mistakes, just be better. And what better place to start than this fabulous female empowered tag from the always cool Kelly over at Why We Play Games (thanks, girl).
Yes. Yes, I do see many opportunities to mention Final Fantasy XIII with this one. No. No, I’m not sorry.
I’m so sorry, internet, but my mind is a freaking mess, no matter how hard I try to fix it. I haven’t been able to social media at all this past week… just focusing on work (busier than usual) and a neat IRL side project with an old college buddy (tight deadline on that one). My moods are all over the place: irrational rage, sadness, hopelessness, intense feelings of isolation, and my anxiety levels have been way over 9,000.
It’s a definite pattern with me. I’m on top of the world for a while, then I crash hard, push everyone away because it feels like they are pushing me away, feel lonely, feel bad about everything, feel really happy again… cycle repeats.
Anyway, detailed personal whining about the whys of what’s bugging me incoming. Feel free to ignore this post. I’ve hinted a bit about some medical things I’ve had going on lately, and this is the full lowdown now that my brain has finally snapped (again). I guess I just need to vent on the internet with this post. The important thing is that I didn’t delete myself from the internet this time. A definite improvement!
Reader discretion is also strongly advised since this post contains coarse language and depressing themes.
“Backlog: just a small word but one which tends to send a shiver down most gamers’ spines. That sense of unease and discomfort experienced when looking at our pile of unplayed titles is a feeling we’re all too familiar with. Yet try as we might, we just can’t stop ourselves from adding entries to our library of games to be played and feeling oh-so-guilty about it.” – Kim of Later Levels
Tell me about it! Oh and you’re now reading the words of someone who started blogging in the WordPress world under the theme of “Conquering the Gaming Backlog” (me, in case it wasn’t obvious). Ah, those were the days… if only I could yell some words of advice back to 2015 me. So. Many. Things. I’d do differently. Alas! But I digress. The learning point I got from that experience is: I’ve accepted that I can never keep up with the pace of games I wanna play, thus the backlog monster in unconquerable. But why make thy video game backlog thy enemy? If you can’t beat ’em, embrace ’em!
The awesome Kim over at Later Levels is running a cool collaboration, that I sorta helped with, called #LoveYourBacklog. You can check out the details on Later Levels for more info on how you can get involved. It’s really cool! There are badges and award categories too. The major message is: we all have backlogs and should be proud of them! So show off that fine backlog monster of yours, eh.
Anyway, here’s my entry in the collaboration that I totally helped with!! This is so cool. I’ve never really played a role in shaping an event before. Thanks, Kim! You rock.
For those of you who don’t know, the talented Kim over at Later Levels hosts an event called Question of the Month. Last year, the event was run much differently than it is nowadays. There was a poll and stuff to pick the winners instead of a “Chosen of the Star Blogger” contest (which is also cool). Yeah. I know. That’s all in the past, and you should really always move forward (and I’m SO FAR behind on answering the new questions), but I thought I’d re-post my December 2017 answer to the holiday themed question anyway:
While working my way through a backup of posts from my deleted website that I want to restore here on Livid Lightning, I found my old answer to the Well-Red Mage’s Asking Big Questions 003 community event: “How do you overcome writer’s block?”
I’ve sadly seen a lot of bloggers being vocal about having writing issues lately, and that whole NaNoWriMo thing is happening at the time of this post. This seems like a great time to babble about my battle with the block! My old response is way too out of date to re-post (especially since I didn’t follow my own advice and actually broke down and deleted my old website… oops) so I decided to provide a newer answer in this post. I’m keeping my weird Thwomp analogy, though, since it amused me… a lot.
It’s time I got brave enough to officially come out in the form of a blog post, internet. My name is Ellen, and I’m a demiromantic asexual. What exactly does that mean? Well, I’ll happily try to explain it! It’s complicated, but I’ll try. Ahem.
I’m sure everyone is aware of that sexual orientation thing. You are defined as straight if you are sexually attracted to the opposite gender, you are defined as gay if you’re sexually attracted to the same gender, and you are defined as bi if you’re sexually attracted to any gender. But what if you aren’t sexually attracted to anyone? No. There’s nothing wrong with you. That, my friends, is defined as being asexual. And it is indeed a valid sexual orientation representing about 1% of the human population. For my whole life I thought I was broken and that something was wrong with me. While talking with a very good friend I finally discovered what asexuality was early this year, at last explaining a whole lot of things about my life so far, and most importantly, showing me I’m not alone in the way I feel about love.