Wannabe Writer’s Note: The bulk of this article was written for and originally posted on AmbiGaming Corner, and here it is on my website with a lot of tweaks/additions! Definitely check out Athena Veta’s great content on AmbiGaming and consider supporting her Video Game Relevancy Crusade (TM) on Patreon, if ya got a few bucks to spare.
People come, and no matter how much we don’t want to let it happen, people leave our lives for various reasons. Our life events shape us, change us, and force us to evolve. The only person you will have for that whole life journey is you. It’s important to appreciate the special relationships that come along, but never take them for granted. None of us are here forever, anyway.
It can be downright devastating when you lose a special relationship (close friend, family member, partner, etc.), but it’s important to remember you are never alone. Things will get better with time and the proper application of coping skills. Never destroy yourself just because someone else hurt you or doesn’t want you in their life anymore. I’m not going to lie. Right now, I’m nursing quite the huge wound in my soul from the acceptance of the loss of one of my best friends.
I’m not going to give in to my storm negative emotions and shut away from the world. I’m going to embrace the positive energy flowing around me. My friend and I may never talk again, but I loved that close friendship at its best. I’m going to treasure the good times I shared with that person forever, and I will eventually be able to forgive myself for everything that went horribly wrong.
Closed doors can always reopen with time. This recent experience triggered me to reach out to another lost best friend I had quietly door-slammed 8 years ago (INFJ problems). Guess what? They missed me too and now we’re reconnecting as if nothing happened. Time both heals and destroys. You just have to learn how to go with the flow.
In the present time, I can do nothing but move on while processing my emotions in a healthy way. And that’s going to involve my favourite method of escapism: Video Games!!
Welcome to my monthly progress post that happens on the 13th (unless I miss a month… twice in a row… oops), which marks the start of a new fiscal month here on Livid Lightning. Get it? XIII is my favourite number… because I like Final Fantasy XIII a lot? Jeez… tough crowd.
Hello, my treasured internet readers and valued view-generating spam-bots!
I’ve been a mess again, as usual, and think I’ve recovered from my latest emotional meltdown. That life thing is crazy, man. I’ll babble about some things that have been bugging me in my “Life & Other Things” section, if you are at all interested in reading me whine about stuff.
I consider 13 my lucky number. So it being Friday the 13th with a full moon makes it an extra special day for me. Here’s to hoping the universe sends those good vibes to anyone who needs them!
Before I’m legally obligated to change the name of my website to “Livid Mass Effect”, I’m going to post about something else for a change: blogger tags. And this 8,000+ word question-answering chaos needs some semi-serious explanation so… ahem.
Back on July 4th 2019, one of my dear blogger buddies jokingly (I’m assuming) challenged me to answer 121 questions. Yes, smart guy Aether tagged me 11 times in his Sunshine Blogger Award 3.0 post. Well… challenge accepted and surpassed, I’m afraid. A Lightning always pays her debts.
Unfortunately for Aether, I happen to have a HUGE backlog of these tags (plus a backup of some from my old website). Being the weird person that I am, I decided to combine them all and here we are with 203 questions answered in a single article. My life history in blogger tag answers… Enjoy!
Disclaimer: Only Aether is required to actually read all of this so feel free to click far away from here if you’re not him. Duplicate questions with different answers, poor formatting, miscounts, and many spelling errors are highly possible. Livid Lightning accepts no responsibility for this, or anything. Read at your own risk.
Welcome to my monthly progress post that happens on the 13th (unless I miss a month… oops), which marks the start of a new fiscal month here on Livid Lightning. Get it? XIII is my favourite number… because I like Final Fantasy XIII a lot? Jeez… tough crowd.
I haven’t been feeling very social media friendly lately, so I haven’t been online for a few weeks. I hope everyone’s rocking whatever they’re working on these days! I’ve been busy battling my brain’s negative thought patterns, trying to platinum the Mass Effect trilogy, and attempting more of the social offline thing.
Oh and I went on an amazing trip to the USA and got to meet two of my blogging buddies (Athena and The Shameful Narcissist) in reality. That was the best IRL experience ever!! First time leaving Canada, too, eh. I’ll probably be blogging about my trip in another post, but TL;DR I went to the great State of New Jersey and also got to spend a day wandering around New York City (just… WOW).
Anyway, I suspect my social media presence will never be the same as it once was. That’s life! We move forward, we grow, and we change.
Welcome to my monthly progress post that happens on the 13th, which marks the start of a new fiscal month here on Livid Lightning. Get it? XIII is my favourite number… because I like Final Fantasy XIII a lot? Jeez… tough crowd.
OMG!! This is my 100th post on Livid Lightning. Woot! And almost a full year since I restarted the blogging thing, too. I’m actually quite impressed with myself for not deleting this site yet… I do think my mental health and self-destructive tendencies are under control for good now. I plan to be babbling on the internet for as long as I can game, read, write words, and breathe. Thank you for all the support!
I’m also hella happy spring 2019 decided to show up! Saturdays seem to be rain days (ugh… why not Monday if it MUST rain??), but I’m enjoying the walk to work every morning in daylight AND without a winter coat. Plus my two cats are thrilled it’s warm enough for me to open my apartment windows for them again.
Welcome to my monthly progress post that (usually) happens on the 13th, which marks the start of a new fiscal month here on Livid Lightning (but not this month). Get it? XIII is my favourite number… because I like Final Fantasy XIII a lot? Jeez… tough crowd.
True story: The Final Fantasy games have taught me roman numerals. That’s how I know 20 is XX (I’m right, right??). Not sure how useful that knowledge is in today’s world, but oh well. Anyway, here’s the late edition of my blog’s fiscal month update! Happy 4/20 to all my stoner friends out there too, by the way. Not my jam, to be honest, but if it makes you happy, blaze it responsibly, eh!
I’m so sorry, internet, but my mind is a freaking mess, no matter how hard I try to fix it. I haven’t been able to social media at all this past week… just focusing on work (busier than usual) and a neat IRL side project with an old college buddy (tight deadline on that one). My moods are all over the place: irrational rage, sadness, hopelessness, intense feelings of isolation, and my anxiety levels have been way over 9,000.
It’s a definite pattern with me. I’m on top of the world for a while, then I crash hard, push everyone away because it feels like they are pushing me away, feel lonely, feel bad about everything, feel really happy again… cycle repeats.
Anyway, detailed personal whining about the whys of what’s bugging me incoming. Feel free to ignore this post. I’ve hinted a bit about some medical things I’ve had going on lately, and this is the full lowdown now that my brain has finally snapped (again). I guess I just need to vent on the internet with this post. The important thing is that I didn’t delete myself from the internet this time. A definite improvement!
Reader discretion is also strongly advised since this post contains coarse language and depressing themes.