Things on the XIIIth: May 2019

Welcome to my monthly progress post that happens on the 13th, which marks the start of a new fiscal month here on Livid Lightning. Get it? XIII is my favourite number… because I like Final Fantasy XIII a lot? Jeez… tough crowd.

OMG!! This is my 100th post on Livid Lightning. Woot! And almost a full year since I restarted the blogging thing, too. I’m actually quite impressed with myself for not deleting this site yet… I do think my mental health and self-destructive tendencies are under control for good now. I plan to be babbling on the internet for as long as I can game, read, write words, and breathe. Thank you for all the support!

I’m also hella happy spring 2019 decided to show up! Saturdays seem to be rain days (ugh… why not Monday if it MUST rain??), but I’m enjoying the walk to work every morning in daylight AND without a winter coat. Plus my two cats are thrilled it’s warm enough for me to open my apartment windows for them again.

Things on the XIII May 2019 Cats
That bird in the tree has no idea how lucky it is…. Another good reason to keep your precious kitties inside! The little furry feline monsters are responsible for the deaths of millions of birds each year.

Intro outta the way and here’s what I’ve been up to this fiscal month. Continue reading Things on the XIIIth: May 2019

Things on the XIIIth (Sorry, XXth): April 2019

Welcome to my monthly progress post that (usually) happens on the 13th, which marks the start of a new fiscal month here on Livid Lightning (but not this month). Get it? XIII is my favourite number… because I like Final Fantasy XIII a lot? Jeez… tough crowd.

True story: The Final Fantasy games have taught me roman numerals. That’s how I know 20 is XX (I’m right, right??). Not sure how useful that knowledge is in today’s world, but oh well. Anyway, here’s the late edition of my blog’s fiscal month update! Happy 4/20 to all my stoner friends out there too, by the way. Not my jam, to be honest, but if it makes you happy, blaze it responsibly, eh!

Things on the XXth

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Critical Warning: Mental Health Meltdown Imminent!!

Homer Simpson Meltdown
Ahhhhh!!! Wut do I do???

I’m so sorry, internet, but my mind is a freaking mess, no matter how hard I try to fix it. I haven’t been able to social media at all this past week… just focusing on work (busier than usual) and a neat IRL side project with an old college buddy (tight deadline on that one). My moods are all over the place: irrational rage, sadness, hopelessness, intense feelings of isolation, and my anxiety levels have been way over 9,000.

It’s a definite pattern with me. I’m on top of the world for a while, then I crash hard, push everyone away because it feels like they are pushing me away, feel lonely, feel bad about everything, feel really happy again… cycle repeats.

Anyway, detailed personal whining about the whys of what’s bugging me incoming. Feel free to ignore this post. I’ve hinted a bit about some medical things I’ve had going on lately, and this is the full lowdown now that my brain has finally snapped (again). I guess I just need to vent on the internet with this post. The important thing is that I didn’t delete myself from the internet this time. A definite improvement!

Reader discretion is also strongly advised since this post contains coarse language and depressing themes.

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Things on the XIIIth: March 2019

Welcome to my monthly progress post that happens on the 13th, which marks the start of a new fiscal month here on Livid Lightning. Get it? XIII is my favourite number… because I like Final Fantasy XIII a lot? Jeez… tough crowd.

Winter…. I’m begging you… PLEASE GO AWAY! I’m so tired of snowbanks, freezing weather, my car getting stuck, and every part of my body hurts from shoveling and falling on icy sidewalks.

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Winter almost literally has its horrible claws dug in here…

To top it all off, my area of the world likes to do this Daylight Saving Time crap where we set the clocks ahead an hour last weekend. Not only does that mess with my internal clock, it also means I get to walk to work in the dark-cold again. Yay… Seriously. We aren’t all farmers who need max daylight hours these days… or whatever the hell the reason for originally starting this was. Some archaic traditions need to die, and changing the clocks is one of them.

Spring and actual longer days will come soon. But yeah, here’s what I’ve been up to this fiscal month… so tired.

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